Ok, time for a personal confession. I've always hated shopping for clothes. Take all of the angst we women all feel during that dreaded time of year when we have to go swimsuit shopping, and just imagine feeling it every time you go shopping for clothes in general. Like a lot of people, I held on to clothes for years longer than I should have, just because I didn't want to have to suffer through the depression of buying new ones. Since high school, every time I entered a store, I wondered if anything was going to fit. Then, I just started shopping at stores that offered bigger sizes (but were definitely lower quality) just to avoid the embarassing moment when I found out that they did not. And I wore clothes that were too small, just because I didn't want to go stores like Lane Bryant and have to admit my real size to myself. I never even tried clothes on until I got home, because I'd go to a dressing room, I'd imagine that some security officer was watching their camera and throwing up in their mouth a little. I didn't want to be responsible for the retinal scarring of any innocent store employees.
Up until today, I was still wearing oversized clothes and workout gear because I was afraid that if I went shopping, I'd discover that I still couldn't shop at the stores I wanted to. But, I'd been feeling kind of down on myself lately, feeling kind of frumpy and ugly, so I decided to brave it. I needed a pick-me-up and the mall usually does it. So, I did, and I have an announcement to make. I can officially shop in any store I want! Even my boobs, which I was convinced would never fit into normal shirts, have gotten small enough to wear a Large. It's a glorious day! I even bought my first pair of skinny jeans. They're cropped, but I have freaky short legs, so they sit just above high-water length, and I have to roll them up a little extra.
Today feels good. I'm glad I made my shopping trip. It was just the morale boost that I needed. I'm back to feeling like my usual pretty, confident self. Thanks for that, new clothes! :)
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